Finally!

Well I found myself reading books about people that have gone through something tough in their lives.  I read Tweak because I like reading about addicts and how they get through needing to get high everyday all day.  I want to see how people like that can change in the world and become a member of society..not just a drug addict.  I have hope for those kinds of people.  Personally, I've known some people that have gotten into drugs and I know first hand how it changes peoples whole lives.  They get kicked out of school, lose their jobs, and their families don't know what to do with them.  It's sad but it's a part of life,  a part of life that some people try and ignore.  I find myself reading mostly at night before I go to bed..always laying down in my bed because that's the quietest place and I'm comfy in my bed.  I didn't read every night because I work 5 days a week and I normally have other homework to work on when I get home.  I like to read in silence because if I don't I don't understand everything I read.  Everything has to be quiet and kinda dark in my room. I have to be tired and ready for bed because I know after I read I won't want to get up.  I checked my phone a lot because I always text people before I go to bed...I'm a good double tasker.  Well that's gonna be it for me this year.  It was fun..I'm glad we bonded blogger:) thank you and good bye.

J-Momma.

last graded post.

So I've been reading this diary..about kids livin in the hood and having to fight for their lives everyday. They wake up every morning and walk out the door not knowing if their gonna get shot or not..i can't even imagine  what that would be like. I walk out my door and my parents tell me to have a good day and my neighbors wave..thats totally different then being scared of being shot. The kids teacher cared so much about them and its kind of amazing. she did everything she could for them for nothing in return...thats a damn good teacher if you ask me..the world needs more people like that.

J-momma

People are so annoying.

Well today in marketing my teacher gave me a bad grade on a packet the i wasnt there for one day and the day i was there he spent the whole class talking to one student about something we've been working on all year and it pissed me off so I let him know what the deal was.  He seriously never teaches. He just gets off topic everyday and then tests us every week..which is such bullshit.  If a teacher is gonna test every week..they should be reviewing the material every day...not talking with students everyday..it's not my job to learn every single thing on my own..he should teach. He's a funny person but a bad teacher..it's so annoying.  It brought my gpa down and pissed me off.  And one of my friends just told me that someone in my class posted on twitter about it...real mature. It's stupid stuff like that that makes me even more excited for graduation..i'll never have to talk to immature people from this school again and I can't wait!!  I have no desire to talk to anyone from Homestead when I walk out that door..maybe 5 people.  On another note I have the next two days off so I'm excited about that one.  Then this weekend I'm working at the football game at st. Francis and the lantern.  Well that's about it...i'll blog about my new book tomorrow..too sleepy.

J-Momma.

blogger on my phone!

I just downloaded blogger on my phone=)

Sleepy Sunday

Well I had an okay weekend.  Friday could have been soo fun but my friends all bailed and my phone died and my charger broke so I couldn't go anywhere.  It was kinda nice..I just went to bed early and didn't have to talk to anyone.  Saturday I bought new nikes and got my new ugg boats:) very exciting.  I worked saturday night then I went to Linda's and stayed there..we stayed up all night and it was fun ;).  I worked tonight and it suckeddddd. I work 6 days this week at moe's and i'm working at the lantern on saturday for some extra money because i'm so broke and chirstmas is coming soon and I want to buy some things for myself:)  I'm falling behind with school cause i'm so tired from work all the time to do homework and I wanna have a life as a normal teenager...but no I gotta do a bunch of stupid shit all the time.  I know I'm gonna miss out on a good weekend this weekend and I'm shitty about it but it's whatever.  I might just go out anyway..even though I gotta work in the morning.  My bed is calling me..good nighttt

J-Momma.

Rough week

Well this week has totally sucked...everyone is just being annoying and pissing me off.  I need a break from people.   High school drama is so stupid and pointless and that's all people care about.  I just wanna go to school and go to work and not talk to anyone.  That would be the perfect day..if I didn't have to listen to boy problems all day everyday.  Work is pissing me off.  No one does anything ever because none of them know how to do it because no managers know how to train people so I do everything and get yelled at for everything.  I need to look for a new job because that place is making me crazy.  I work everyday this weekend which is bullshit.  I had 3 days off during the week and I work everyday on the weekend...i've been there the longest..I should get at least one night off on the weekend..which is another reason why I'm looking for another job.  Sometimes it's cool working with your friends but sometimes it's so annoying..because you never get away from them and I can't spend that much with anyone..ever. School is so stressful.  I have like 3 different projects going on at one time and I don't feel like doing any of them...ever.  I just wanna sleep all the time and be by myself. 

I started a new book this week, The Freedom Writers Diary.  I've seen the movie so I wanna see if it's similiar.  It's about a class of kids from the inner city that deal with drugs and lots of crime all around them.  Some are in gangs and many have problems with each other because of their background and staying loyal to their families.  Their teacher is a rich white girl that doesn't look like she belongs anywhere near the inner city but she gets them to write in diaries...about their lives and what they have to deal with.  Well that's about it for now. 

J-Momma

Curently Week 12

I have finished my book and moved on to another one called The Freedom Writers Diary.  I've seen the movie but never read the book so I'm excited to see if it's similiar or way different.

Pages this week and last week:  210
Total pages:1075

Sentences of the Week:

1. My P.O. hasn't relized yet that schools are just like the city and the city is just like prison.

2. If I stay in here, one of two things will happen: I'll get jacked or I'll die of boredom.

3. It's not like they can't get away with it, with their big-ass pants; they could fit me and six of my friends.

Bingo.

4 mistakes:

1. Kayyy Babyyyhttp://maddie17-booklover.blogspot.com/ -- He says whatever comes to mind, saying that his parents "would have about two hemorrhages apiece if I told anything pretty personal about them," shows that he doesn't really care what he says, just wants to get his point across. 
Mistake- She uses he says and that's a common weakness. 

2. Peanut butter without the Jelly http://addie-line.blogspot.com/ --  "Towering volumes of marble and glass" is what he saw as the lobby, which creates a clear, yet abstract vision.
Mistake- Starts a sentence with a quote.

3.They call me fresh money   Baker describes as the escalator as "They were the free standing kind: a pair of integral signs swooping upward between the two floors they served without struts or piers to bear any intermediate weight" and  he tells us that "On sunny days like this one, a temporary, steeper escalator of daylight, formed by intersections of the lobby's towering volumes of marble and glass, met the real escalators just above their middle point, spreading into a needly area of shine where it fell against their brushed-steel side-pannels, and adding long glossy highlights to each of the black rubber handrails"
Mistake- Wayyyyyyy to long of quotes...shorten them up alotttttt.

4.  Eddie The exert The Mezzanine by Nicholson Baker uses high language as he decribes the lobby and escalators as, "area of shine where it fell against their brushed steel side panels."
Mistake- Uses the word uses...bad verb.

Favorite one-

1.  J. D. Salinger's coarse and personal language in Catcher in the Rye creates an informal characterization of the narrator and his circumstances that is easy to relate to. The uncensored and colloquial words used in this excerpt are blunt and common in elevation. The narrator references David Copperfield by stating that his childhood was full of that "kind of crap," which underscores the idea that the narrator himself is part of the hoi polloi. The language most often has a negative connotation, including a phrase the describes certain characters as, "touchy as hell." The narrator's tone is resentful toward his own circumstances, of which he obviously has poor impressions. The language lacks any sort of mellifluous musicality, the sounds are dull and discordant. They too convey the narrator's "crumby" perspective on others' lives and successes.

Gettin' sick...

Well I feel like crap today but the good news is we don't have school on friday and I don't have to work so I can sleep alllll dayyyy and get caught up on homework hopefully.  We didn't get tips last week so this week I'm gonna get good tips and I'm excited because I want to order some ugg boots. I just got off work because I had to work with my lazy manager and I closed my line all  by myself again...shocker there.  I can't wait till my GM is back and things are back to normal.  I need to get some sleep..good night blogger.

J-Momma.

"Practice Diction Analysis"

In the excerpt from his novel The Merranine, Nicholson Baker's slightly elevated and business like diction describes the flat, cold escalators in his place of employment. Baker describes the walls around the elevators and how they "form by intersections of the lobby's towering volumes of marble and glass."  He makes it seem like there is nothing out of the norm everyday when he goes up and down the elevators.  Baker talks about the "black rubber handrails which wavered slightly as the handrails slid on their tracks".  He describes them in great detail but he seems so business like and boring as he talks about it, like he's always in a business mode because he's at his work.  He almost feels trapped by the escalators that he rides up and down everyday because it will never change and nothing will ever be out of the norm. 

Currently Week 1 of New Quarter

Pages I've read this week: 105
Total: 865
Books: The Social Network

Class thing:

To Kill a Mockingjay: I like when this person talks about the Blood Meridans sound and says it's common but haromious.

The World is Ours: I like how this person talks about the dark mood of the passages.

Keep It Classy:  says laug. is humble and the culture is suggestive.

Style Mapping

I choose to compare Neil Gaiman's, Stardust, Cormac McCarthy's, Blood Meridian, and Alan Paton's Cry, The Beloved Country.  Paton's book starts out in the country, talking about the great hills and mountains all around him.  He used denotative diction because he decribes the country with words using there exact meanings.  He says " Keep it, Guard it, care of it, for it keeps men, guards men, cares for men. Destroy it and man is destroyed."  He wants people to take care of the land we live on because it takes care of us and without it we are nothing. He uses medium to high elevation because some words sound more high class then others. 

In Gaiman's, Stardust, he uses higher dicton and when he describes the Wall and everything in and around the Wall.  He describes what the wall is made of and who lives within the Wall.  He talks about the sheeps grazing on the out skirts which is sweet and calming. 

Power out.

Well when I was at work today the freakin' power went out when we were closing and I of course freaked out...lol. Thank God we were almost done closing because we couldn't see anything. Shelby and I ran down the street to a po-po to ask what was going on and he said the whole block with out and they didn't know why so we ran back and went home.  School went quickly today.  I didn't go in til 3rd period because I slept in again..my mom says I can't do that anymore cause I do it all the time but whatever.  School is just so boring and pointless.  When I get to college I'm going to use everything I learn in my career...there's no pointless bull shit like high school..they make us do pointless crap because the state tells them they have to keep us in class for 180 days..which is dumb..if I know everything I need to know why keep me there even longer? I'm just excited to be done with homestead and the people in it.  Some people i'll miss...like 5 maybe but the rest of them...I couldn't care less.  Their so immature and they have no idea what the real world is really like and when they get there...their gonna fail..and i'm probably gonna laugh.  Well i'm going to bed.. good night blogger.

J-Momma

Impossible.

 Impossible
By: Shontelle
Editor's note---amazing song...sooo true.

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did, I did

And you were strong and I was not
My illusion, my mistake
I was careless, I forgot
I did

And now when all is done
There is nothing to say
You have gone and so effortlessly
You have won
You can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof tops
Write it on the sky line
All we had is gone now

Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

Falling out of love is hard
Falling for betrayal is worst
Broken trust and broken hearts
I know, I know

Thinking all you need is there
Building faith on love and words
Empty promises will wear
I know, I know

And now when all is gone
There is nothing to say
And if you're done with embarrassing me
On your own you can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof tops
Write it on the sky line
All we had is gone now

Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible!
Ooh impossible (yeah yeah)

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof tops
Write it on the sky line
All we had is gone now

Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did...

Moe Monday...horrible.

Well today was just an all around shitty day.  I had a busy weekend...I worked 21 hours and chilled at Zane's and Casey's after work both nights.  Shelby and I had to prep Sunday morning and didn't go to bed til 5am...two hours of sleep...7 hour shift...bad bad bad.  It was horrible, we were like passing out because we were so tired...I slept in a booth for an hour...haha.  I went home and slept for like 6 hours so I was good.  Then of course another week of school and another 5 days of work..which sucks.  People at work just piss me off so much...only like 3 people do their jobs and the rest of them just stand there and stare at you...one day..things aren't gonna be very pretty let me tell you.  I had to go to hospital with Taylor today and I was so mad..she's so annoying and lazy...ugh...and we used to be tight..now I can't even be around her. She's just stupid and thinks she's hott shit...guess what...she's nothin' special.  Frances and I are fed up..we just need a break.  I just want a week off...no school...no work...no stupid drama...is that too much to ask for? yeah i guess.  I'm too young to be this burnt out all the time...i've already had mono once..it's lookin' pretty good for a second time. Well that's pretty much it for now...I need to do my hw and get some sleep. Goodnight blogger.

J-Momma.

Quartly.

Well this quarter has gone by fast and i'm very thankful for that.  School just bores me and I want to finally be done and graduated.  I'm gonna miss all my friends but my crew will be together all summer and I know that the 4 of us won't be strangers.  Frances, Mo, and I are staying at IPFW the first year but Shelby is leaving us and going to Indy.  It's okay though, we'll be down to visit all time. 

I've liked this class this quart but it's been a lot of work.  I love blogging because I've always loved writing about my life and now I get a grade for it.  I've never been a big reader but this quarter i've tried to get into books and it's been fun.  My favorite book I read was Tweak becauase Nic had a crazy life and I like reading about people going down the wrong path in life and finding themselves at the end of that path.  I've wanted to read that book for years but never got to it because I'm so busy wiith work and I used to eat,sleep and breathe basketball.  I always read before I go to bed because I can lay down in my bed with my book and not think about anything else but reading.  If I read during the day I have so much on my mind and I can't focus on the book.  I want to read more books like Tweak this next semester because they keep me coming back and I like reading about weird things like that.  I'm making a goal for myself to read 4 books next quarter becaus I only read 2 1/2 this quarter.  I've just been busy with work and trying to keep my grades up.  My dad got a new job so I can cut my hours a little bit but I don't want to.  Work is keeping out of trouble and if I stop working so much I may get into more trouble.  Well thats all for now, I'll be blogging this weekend to catch up because  I didn't blog this week.

J-Momma

Sleepy sleepy girl.

Well Frances and I are sitting here, chattin' about work and school and how ready we are to get out of here.  I never thought I was gonna be this ready to get out of this school.  Everyday I see stupid immature people that I hate seeing everyday and it makes me want to graduate even more.  My friends and I are so ready to go to college and meet new people. People that aren't involved in stupid high school drama...people that live on their own and make their own money and don't live off of mommy and daddy. That's pretty much how Homestead is...everyone's parents have money and they give their kids whatever they want.  I'm going on a college visit tomorrow with my brother Jarek and i'm excited.  I wanna meet cute college guys so I can stop thinking about stupid high school boys.  I'm excited to see where I'm gonna spend the next 4-6 years because I've never been on the campus.  I'm going  back to school with Jarek and it's gonna be weird because I've been alone for a few years and it's gonna be weird seeing him at school now.  Work is a bad place right now.  The girls and I have an issue with a manager and shit is heating up.  But I'll let you know what happens tonight when I get there.  Well I'm exhausted and class is almost overrrrr..laterrrr.

J-Momma

Headache.

Well today was okay I guess.  I finally had a day off after like 6 days so it was a nice break...too bad I didn't get to take a nap but I'll sleep better tonight I guess.  I did some homework after school and went to the store for my mom.  Then I made dinner and did some more homework...such an exciting life right...I feel like a freaking mom allll the time...even at my own house..I guess that's how I started the whole J-momma thing..because I take care of my family a lot and do a lot on my own.  I always have been that way but since I got into high school I'm a lot more responsible and I feel like I take care of everyone around me and it's annoying.  I want someone to do my laundry and take care of me...but I guess I should get used to it because i'm gonna be doing it for the rest of my life. It'll be easier when I can really be on my own but it's gonna be a while til that happens.  Most kids go off to college and leave their parents but that's not the case for me.  I'm going to be living with my parents through college because I don't have the money to pay for college, a car, and a house.  My brother is doing the same thing so I guess it's okay.  I mean we all fight but Jarek's never here and I'm always out and about at work or with friends. Well I feel better now that I vented a bit before I go to sleep...it's been a long stressful day.

J-Momma

Currently Week 7

Pages this week: 105
Total pages: 760
**I didn't like the book I was reading so I switched to a new one**
Books I've read:
Tweak
Life
The Social Network**

Maybe things are turning around..

Well I didn't go to school today because I couldn't sleep last night.  I've been having issues sleeping so I dunno what i'm gonna do. Maybe I need to stop taking naps so I'll sleep better.  My dad got a new job last week and got a new car, new phone, and new computer so that's good.  Hopefully he's good and everything goes well and we start making more money so I can have a life and get the hell out of Moe's because I'm about to lose my mind..I want to be able to do nothing and hang out with my friends again. I didn't realize these last few years I would miss it as much as I do.  I miss the basement at Richard's...with all my friends..when we all got along and no one had beef...now everyone hates each other over stupid reasons but I guess that's a part of growin' up, right?  You learn what kind of people you want to be around you and what kind of people you never want to talk to again... I guess I did.  I hate a lot more people then I ever have because over half of homestead is superrrrrrrr fake and they think they are hott shit..well guess what...their not..they all look trashy if you ask me.  Well I need to try and sleep now...Good night Blogger.

J-Momma <3

Cute pic.

This is were I wish I was right now...that'd be tight...being on a beach with my feet in the sand...instead of here...with my feet in Homestead and the awesome Indiana weather....loveeee itttt....notttt.  I wanna go somewhere big for spring break this year with a bunch of my friends...I just don't know where.  <3 Anywhere but Fort Wayne would be tight.

Currently Week 6

Pages this week: 110
Total Pages: 655
Book: Life- Keith Richards

1. One note leads to another, and you never know quite what's going to come next, and you don't want to.
2. It's like walking on a beautiful tightrope.
3. I was basically a musical sponge.

I like when Keith talks about his love for music because some people never find that in life and never become so in love with a hobbie like some people are with music and I think it's pretty tight.. I love listening to music but I don't have a musical bone in my body.

Another day at Moe's

Well I just got off work...I swear I spend more time at Moe's then I do sleeping lately.  I just found out today that I have to cater an event with Shelby and Frances at Vera Bradley and I'm exciteddddd. It's so much more fun with you get to go with your friends.  My brother finally came home for the first time in like a week..shocker. I know he's gonna try and chat with me about things and I am not down...I have better things to do.  He just pisses me off everytime I talk to him lately..it's amazing how much people can change because of the people they date.  My childhood best friend did the same thing to me...and now I don't even see her...it's all about her boyfriend...it literally makes me sick looking at them because it makes me so mad...after being best friends with someone for 10 years then they drop you like a fly..it sucks..it makes you trust no one...ever.  And if that's how things are going to be...I don't want to trust people..they just screw you over and what's the point of being "j-momma" and helping everyone you care about with everything if they don't return the favor...I just don't see the point anymore.  So I wake up everyday...go to school...go to work...and that's about it...I'm just trying to get through this year and on to bigger and better things in life.  And I am about to delete like 500 people off my facebook cause I don't care about their stupid lives...so if i delete you...don't send me another friend request...you post too much pointless crap on your facebook and it annoys me.  Well I feel better now that I vented to myself:) Goodnight Blogger.

J-Momma. <3

Crappy Day...

Well I had my senior meeting today...and it makes me nervous...i'm not ready for college.  I'm freakin' out about it cause i'm not exactly sure what I want to do yet. I know I want to go into the medical field but I don't have very good grades because I hate homestead and most of the people in it.  I know things will be different next year because I won't know everyone so it will be about my studies and making new friends...not worrying about what everyone things that I already know.  I have to make something out of myself.. I feel like everyone's doubting me lately because of stupid shit and I'm already sick of it and it just started. I just want everyone to leave me alone and let me handle my own life..I've been doing just fine and I don't need any help.  My parents are trying to be involved and they need to butt out..they haven't been involved for a long time..why start now..  So I've been trying to read more lately cause it makes me stop thinking about all the messed up things i'm dealing with right now and this book is even more messed up...well maybe...we'll see.  It's about Keith Richards from the Rolling Stones and his life from when he was a young child.  He lived in another country so it's kinda weird reading about all the places and people he talks about...and it was in the 50's and 60's and things were a lot different back then.  He talks about how his dad was never in his life because he worked all the time and he tried to make up for lost time sometimes but that's hard to do.  His mother was the strict one..always worried about what he was doing and where he was..he got into a lot of trouble in high school because he just didn't care anymore and I don't blame the guy. The only reason I deal with the stupid crap I deal with at Homestead is because I know that if I don't I'll be worthless later in life and I don't want that for myself and for my future family.  My life is the opposite of his..my mom is the nice one and my dad is the hard ass.  She's always trying to get in my business and so is he and I try to keep what I tell them on a need to know basis because their annoying and I have better things to do then explain myself to them every freaking day.  I'm very able to take care of myself and I've always been that way...I don't like when people try to talk to me about my issues...I can take care of it..it's no one else's business and they just need to butt out..that's just how it's always been..and it's not changing 6 months before I turn 18...no way.

J-Momma.

Currently Week 5

Pages this week: 105
Total pages: 545
Life--By: Keith Richards

Favorite Sentences of the Week:
1. Memory is fiction, and an alternative fiction of that event is from my friend and playmate Sandra Hull, consulted all these years later. 
2.  For companionship I kept pets.  I had a cat and a mouse.
3.  Then raise the scarlet standard high, Within its shade we'll live and die, Though cowards flinch and traitors sneer, We'll keep the red flag flying here.

I love this 2nd sentence because no one thinks to have two pets that hate each other but protect each other from the outside world...pretttyyy sweettt...and I like cats. :) 

Round Three

Well the weekend has come to an end way to fast.  The Wild 96.3 Concert suckeddddddd. It rained the whole time and the girls looked like nasty strippers...I was glad to get out of there after ten hours of being at work.  Friday night was Homecoming and the game was fun.  I'll look back on those memories 20 years from now and be glad I went so I'm glad Shelby and I went.  At the pep session we played tug-a-war with the juniors and they had 9 huge football players so they beat us :( but were still better then them..just cause their huge doesn't mean anything:) George of course came out to piss me off and it worked...that boys gonna get it..there was a reason for the round three title..but it's gone now.  I worked at the Lantern last night until 2 a.m. and I was pissed.  This creepy dude that works there was being really mean so I'm not gonna work there anymore cause I'm sick of dealing with him. My dad got a new job so they say I can stop working so many hours which is good...I just hope things work out cause I need a freaking break.  Today I worked at the Light the Night walk and it rained the whole time and my arms feel like jello from moving all the crap I had to move these past few days...and of course I work everyday this week again...ohhh joyyy..well I'm goin' to bed...Goodd Nightttt Bloggerrrr.

J-Momma

Fog Delay Day

Well my day started off good today with a nice 2 hour delay :)!  I went out to lunch with Eden & Elise and it was bomb.  They have Etymology together and made me laugh cause a bunch of people in their class read my blog and crack up..that made me laugh.  I work everyday this week but it's whatever..shit happens..need the $$$.  Moe's is catering the Wild 96.3 concert on Thursday and Shelby and I are going and we are stokeddddd. We get to stay at the concert after we serve food and your suppose to be 18 to go but because were Moe's Hoe's we get in free with passes.  Then Nemo's havin' people over because he works at the radio station and were gonna have a good time.  I've had like no free time lately and it sucks...sometimes I just wanna curl up in a ball in my bed and watch TV like a normal lazy teenager but I'm not a normal teenager...I have more responsibilities and I take on more then most for my family and not many kids have the balls or the brains to do so.  It's all catchin' up to me though..my body is tired and needs some rest for a few days...but the world doesn't stop turnin' just cause I want to so I guess I just gotta stick it out and hope everything I'm doing now will pay off in the future.  My brother and his girlfriend went to the Cubs game with my car yesterday and gave it back to me with no gas when I filled it up before he told me he was taking the car...so help me God if he doesn't put gas in the car..I'm going to shave his legs in his sleep...just sayin'.  So I've been thinking and because I love listening to youtube videos and I never remember the songs I like...I'm gonna write a few in my blogs while I listen to them...while I'm writting...I'm diggin' the idea.

Favorite Songs of the Week:

Amen-Edens Edge

God Gave Me You- Blake Shelton

I love you this big- Scotty McCreery

Barefoot Blue Jean Night- Jake Owens

Crazy Girl- Eli Young Band 

Love Don't Run- Steve Holy

& some T. Swift that reminds me of the good old days...<3

~J-Momma. <3~

Class Claims

1. In Gene Kelly's "Good Morning" [an elegantly exquisite setting and excitingly exuberant style is] conveyed [through the delicate, and brisk attire and the frantic yet hysterical emotion of the actors.]

 

2. In Todrick Hall's "I Wanna Be On Glee," Hall's plea to Glee creator Ryan Murphy shows Hall's inventiveness and artistic talents through the music video's cleverly pariodistic lyrics, assertive instrumentals, and effervescent choreography.

3.In the "So Long, Farewell" musical number of the Sound of Music, the Von Trapp children's bright  facial expressions, poised choreography, and cooing, melodic music develops the sense of lighthearted pleasure and soothing amusement.

4.The hollow, church-like presentation of the sandcastle highlights the convincing superiority over typical sand creations. -- Laughapalooza--Favorite <3

5. In this music video, Justin Bieber and Chris Brown's powerful, driving movement, harmonic vocals, and romantic, loving facials, express a sense of passionate romance and vibrant love.

--- My favorite class claim is the one by Laughapalooza about a sand castle.  That sand castle is so awesome and it has so many different buildings with so much detail in each one, I've never seen anything like it.

Usher's Moving Mountains

Observe:                                                                     Infer:

Posture: fluid, casual, powerful                                 Energetic

Setting: raining in the mountains                                Explosive

Sound: rain, thundering                                             Impatient

Facial Expressions: broken, weak, hurt,                   Sorrowful

wanting his woman                                                     Seductive

Choreography: swift, smooth, sexy                          Sentimental

                                                                                    Bitter

                                                                                    Afraid

                                                                                    Disappointed

                                                                                    Hard-hearted

                                                                                    Lonely

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nQr-HmfXZ-Q&ob=av2e

{ In Usher’s music video “Moving Mountains”,  Usher’s powerful posture,  smooth choreography, and rain and thunder in the background} expresses { a sense seduction and energetic exuberance.}

Currently Week 4

Favorite Sentences:
1. I think some of us had died and gone to heaven, because a year before we were plugging London clubs, and we're doing all right, but actually in the next year, we're somewhere we thought we'd never be.
2. But then all you had to do was cross the tracks and you'd get a real education.  If we were playing with black musicians, they'd look after us.
3. It wasa unbelieveable, every pocked or place you looked...I never knew I had that much coke in my life!

This book is crazyyyy. It's all about the Rolling Stones traveling the world with all their drugs and getting pulled over and freaking out because they are all so high that they don't even know how much coke they have on them.  They hid it in their car...in every pocket...everywhere...they were loadeddddddddd.

Week 4: Number of pages-105
Total Pages- 440
Books I've Read and Reading:
Tweak
Life--Keith Richards

Poem of the month: 
"When the Dog is Sick"
By: Jim Moore

It's a cute little poem about how dogs can love you as much as they want without anyone stopping them.

Sleep over.

Well today was another horrible day. Yesterday was pretty bad but today takes home the gold.  I already didn't feel good when I got to school and I had a bad feeling about going to school.  I got piss tested in 3rd period and that's always no fun.....then I had to go with Momma Mcgee to pick up the little's Mcgee's crap from the Redneck down the street today and it suckedddd. He was such a jerkk...tryin' to take my baby and shit. Ahlexa is one as of last Tuesday and her father is just retarded so were all dealing with a bunch of crap right now.  Tay-Bay and I are havin' a little sleep over tonight because it was needed and I didn't get my paper written like I was suppose to but I can't focus today...my body is drained and needs sleep.  I'll work on it this weekend instead of going out.
Well I finished Tweak and it was amazingggggg. My new favorite book.  I just started reading a book called "Life" and it's about Keith Richards and the Rolling Stones so I'm excited to read this one to because it's about to be nuts.  Well it's about time for us to go to bed. Goodnight Bloggerrrrrr.

J-Momma

Annoyed.

Today was just bad. I didn't go to school cause I felt like crap so I went to the doctor and got tested for mono again...hopefully I don't have it again or I'm screwed. I had it two years ago and I had to quit basketball because of it and that just broke my heart.  I had other reasons for quitting but mostly it was because my body was tired and couldn't do it anymore.  I can't just quit my job....I need the money and I'm in co-op so there is no option.  I think I've just been doing too much lately.  I sleep all the time and I'm always tired...maybe I'm just depressed... I dunno. I guess I'll find out when I get the tests back.  Today sucked cause it's been raining all day and my brother is being a total douche bag like always.  I'm so sick of him...he's never home and when he is...he's just a dick.  I don't have time to deal with those kinds of people in my life.  I have better things to do then listen to him talk about his stupid girlfriend...cause that's all he cares about.  You would think he would care about his sister and his parents but he doesn't.. he's not even home once a week. He comes home to shower..sometimes ...eat...and drop his laundry off. I'm just sick of dealing with all our family problems by myself.  He's never around to care and it pisses me off.  He has no idea what I have to deal with everyday..even if he did know I don't think he would care.  It feels like everyone I talk to has bad money problems right now and we do too.  It's so hard to get through everyday dealing with all this.  People say high school should be the best years of your life but I hope their wrong.  Once I save enough money to live by myself and pay for my own car things will be a lot easier but that will be years from now if I have to keep helping every week.  I don't mind helping because their my parents but I wish my brother would help too.  He's been helping for like a year but things are bad right now and we need his help. They are our parents...that's a given to help them.  But he doesn't care...he would rather spend his money on his girlfriend or his car...real cute right...jerk.  I wish he wasn't so much like my father.  He doesn't listen to my mom either and it's so annoying.  I just wish we could all get along and help each other but no...it's all on my shoulders...like always. Whatever. Screw people.

J-Momma

Currently

Pages this week: 120
Total Pages: 330
Books I've Read: Tweak

Favorite Sentences:

1.  " As long as you look for someone else to validate who you are by seeking their approval, you are setting yourself up for disaster.  You have to be whole and complete in yourself.  No one can give you that.  You have to know who you are- what others say is irrelevant. "

2.  It's too goddamn early and my stomach is all cramped up as I board the 747 for Honolulu. 

3.  When I was little, especially when I visited my mom in L.A., the only escape I had was watching movies.

I love this first sentence because it's true...if you only look to other people for approval you'll never be happy because you could do anything and everything in life and people still wouldn't be happy...so you have to do all you can for yourself and no one else.

September 11th

Well today is september 11th and it's weird to think that everything happened 10 years ago today...I was in second grade and so young then.  I didn't really undetstand back then but now I know everything that happened and how many people died and how bad it hurt our country.  Well that's my thoughts on that subject...nap time.

J-Momma

Another day in Paradise....

Happy Hump Day!!! Only two more days of school then the football game with my girls and hangin' out after that.  I've been waiting for weeks to have a Friday night off and be able to go to the football and be a normal senior.  There is soooo much drama right now it's just annoying...i hate people and their stupid shit I have to deal with everyday.  I'm gonna make a sign that says " Whatever you want...I don't care..Leave me alone..end of story"...and i'm gonna put it on my shirt...swear. Normally I write my thoughts in a journal but because I have to write so many words every week on blogger....I just speak my mind on here. :) and it's workin' just fine.  I feel like the days just past me by and I can't even enjoy being a teenager...people say these are the best years of your life...I wanna have my good years. I've been a wild child all of high school but since I started workin' I've gotten a lot better and a lot smarter about my actions.  In my book(which I'm almost done with!), Nic has everything going for him but he messes everything up because instead of growing out of the party stage...he turned his party stage into his whole life...and that's how people become addicted to drugs...I've seen it first hand and it's the saddest thing I've ever seen and I hope I don't have to see it again but I know in the next ten years i'm probably going to lose some friends from high school to drugs and they might die...that's just a fact of life.  If kids in high school have to drink in the morning just to get through the day because they party so much..they have a serious problem that is going to be with them for the rest of their lives...and when they turn 21 it's going to be 10 times worse because they can go to clubs and get drunk whenever they want.  Well it's late and I need to get to bed.

J-Momma

Weekly Friday Blog

Pages read this week: 102
Total Pages: 210
Books I've read: Tweak

Favorite Sentences of the week:

1. Recovery is strange, you know? I mean, it is so easy in a way and yet, well, so difficult.

2. But the thing is, as the months go by, I always seem to forget why I needed to get sober in the first place.

3. There're a ton of young people at the meetings....it's almost hip to be in recovery here.

These are my favorite sentences of the week because they talk about Nic finally getting into rehab and how difficult it is for him but he's going to try and make it through and get clean this time.  He actually wants to do something with his life and his sponser Spencer is helping him through everything.

Sick Day

Well I've been feeling pretty shitty lately and I slept like all day yesterday so I stayed home from school.  Partly cause I didn't feel good...partly because I had a bunch of homework..and partly because I hate Homestead and the people in it. So I slept in today and had to deal with a bunch of stupid family shit. I should have just gone to school so I wouldn't have to deal with this.  I tried to get out of my life and into Nic's life cause he's got it a lot harder then me but he put himself there and I didn't do anything to deserve any of this.  Nic had a good life and a good family, they didn't have money problems but his parents got divorced and that sucks. That's about the only thing in my life that doesn't suck. My parents are still married but we have a ton of issues. I'm trying to buy a car but I'm too young to get a loan so I have to through my mom and pay her every month but by the looks of it I'm not getting the car and I'm pretty pissed about it.  She feels bad and tries to help but it just pisses me off even more.  I'm so sick of worrying about money and I'm only 17 and I have the weight of so many peoples lives on my shoulders and I hate it.  I just wanna get away from all this.  I wanna go to college far away from here and far away from anyone I know so I can worry about me and my school work and my career but I can't do that. I have to stay here and fix everything...like always.  Nic just picked up and left everyone he cared about for drugs..he just wanted to hang out with girls and get high with his friends. He's not concerned about his family or the people he used to care about because they can stand on their own two feet but he can't.  I feel like my world is the opposite.  I feel like everyone around me needs me 24 hours a day and to bring money in to pay for all my own stuff but there just isn't enough time in the day for me to get everything done that I need to do.  I have so much homework but the days I'm off I just wanna see my friends cause I don't think about my problems as much but then I have to sit there and hear about there problems and act like I care but I really don't anymore...all the highschool drama is just stupid. I took myself out of it...I don't date guys from my high school anymore because their immature and don't have a clue about life after high school.  I just can't wait to get out of this place and move on from the stupid drama.

J-Momma

Currently

Favorite sentences of the week:

1. "I am the weak one of the herd" Nic.

2. He tells me if I truely love Lauren, I'll leave her alone to clean up for awhile.

3. I blink a couple times.  Pink and green geometric shapes form against the white walls. It's like a tower of flashing triangles is building itself up organically from the ground. I can't get rid of them.

These were my favorite sentences because it shows that Nic is realizing how weak he truely is for doing everything he's done to his family and his friends. He talks about how nice he is and how he wants to make friends with the people he meets everyday but those people aren't the people he should be friends with...they are digging him in a deeper hole.  Lauren went to rehab and she wants to get help.  Her parents are trying to help her and Nic but he won't go back to rehab even though he says he loves Lauren.  I would think it would be easier to get through detox together and not one person be clean and the other still be high all the time.

Books I read this week: Tweak
Pages I've read this week: 108
J-Momma

Horrible day

Today has been a horrible day.  I have so much drama with one of my friends it's making my life a living hell so I told her today...I'm done..it's time for me to think about me.  All this drama is stressing me out for no good reason at all.  So after I came home from dealing with her and her drama I took a break and read some more out of my book.  When I read Tweak I go into a different world where I don't have to worry about real life problems..I can just focus on the drama in the book..and I can see the end and I know it's all going to end then that's it..the book is over and I move on to the next one. I guess life is kinda like that..you have to deal with certain peoples problems and when your done with their crap..you shut them out of your life because toxic people aren't gonna get you anywhere in life.  But when you shut them out...another needy person comes running into your life with 50 new problems and the cycle continues til the day you die...how depressing is that? I feel like when I read about Lauren (Nic's girlfriend) she just wants to get help and get away from Nic.  I think Nic is that toxic person in her life that she trys so hard to get away from but she always goes back because she loves him but I think maybe the only reason she thinks she loves him is because he's the one giving her all the drugs she's doing and when they are making love their high on meth and it makes her feel a different way then she would if she were sober.  My friend and I are like that in ways.  She's my toxic person in my life and she keeps coming back into my life day after day and i'm so tired of it. My body is just tired.  I need to focus on the good people I have in my life that aren't stupid about their life choices and that are going somewhere in their lives.  I need to be around people that can set an example or someone that I can talk to about school or work...not someone that does nothing all day and wants everything to be handed to them.  Some people think i'm being cruel but it's just not my job to care about everyone all the time..I don't have the energy for it anymore.. I hope Lauren finds it in herself to stay in rehab and fix all of her issues and I hope Nic lets her go because he knows he's bad for her to be around because she wants to change and he doesn't. You can't make someone want to change anything about themselves..simple as that...if someone doesn't want to get clean from whatever drug they chose to be on..then you can't do anything to make that person what to quit.  People have to be strong enough to do it alone and without the help of other people every step of the way.  When my ex used to try and tell me how to live my life and tell me what to do...I dropped him because I'm old enough to make my own choices and I'm mature enough and not stupid so I can make those choices. Some just chose to think they are above the law and they can do whatever they want to do whenever they want to do it.  And people like that...end up on the street, sellin' drugs, in jail, or dead...that's just life and some people aren't strong enough to handle it.  But that's their problem and they have no business putting that on other people. It feels so good getting all this off my shoulders because today...I just don't care...I'm gonna do me.

J-Momma

Tweak.

When I started reading Tweak it made me think about how different my life could be if I made some of the choices that Nic made when he was young.  All it takes is trying something one time and people get hooked and simply can't get off the drug.  Nic had a good family growing up, he had a little brother and sister..and that didn't change the way he acted or the things he did.  If I had little siblings I would try and do everything I could to be a good example for them when they grow up.  If your siblings grew up watching their big brother be high all day on meth it's gonna make them think it's okay to do those things because if their brother can do it...why can't they?  It only takes one time to mess up your whole life..one time and your world will end as you know it.  I don't understand why people that do hard drugs do them in the first place when they know what it can do it their family and their friends..why would someone make that choice knowing how it would affect everyone around them?  It's because when your in the moment and someone asks if you want something...you only think about yourself..then you only think about how to get your next fix...but I have enough common sense and I care about the people around me so much that I would never even think for one second to do something like that to them.  My family needs me to go to work and make some money to help out.  Things I do everyday is what normal teenagers do...i get up...go to school...do homework..go to work..it keeps me out of situations that make me uncomfortable. I want to make something of myself one day. I wanna do good in school and built myself up the working world. I understand how hard it's gonna be and that's why I'm making some of the hard choices now so I won't regret any of my choices down the road.  I watch some of my friends everyday..and I think about one day if they choose to try a hard drug...what if they don't stop and think about what it would do to me or to their families?
What if they don't even care?  I do so much for people and I always have but when I sit back and think what people do for me..it just makes me mad because I don't get what I give...so i've been trying this new thing...I'm not concerned about other people like I used to be.  I don't see the point anymore.  I should be concerned about my life, school, work, and getting ready for college..not everyone's stupid childish problems.  Well it's late and I gotta wake up early for school.

J-Momma

Blogging..Day 1.

Well today is finally Friday. It's been the longest week everrrrrr. We started school on a Monday this year so we had a full week of school and we are all exhausted.  I'm a co-op student so I'm required to work 15 hours a week at Moe's Southwest Grill.  I normally work like 30 hours a week because I have to pay for a lot of my bills and help my mom pay for some things.  Class is almost over so I'll be back to write very soon.

J-Momma